Planning

As promised here is My ttc #3 plan. I say MY plan because apparently I am the only person that is ttc #3 in my house.

Last night after we cut off the lights and tv, Bobby said "Do you really want another baby? Cause I am really happy with the 2 we do have. If we are then we need to get going, I guess."

I said "Yes of course I do. I always wanted 3 kids", he said "I will do whatever you want, but I think 2 is plenty. We will never have anything if we have another. I am content. It is all I can do to make it work with the 2 we have."

My solution: "I will give up something" Bobby asked me what can I give up? I don't know, I already am the ONLY main person to sacrifice so I don't know. The only thing I do know is that IF we don't TTC #3, I am afraid in a few years I will regret it and be disappointed that we didn't even try.

I sent Bobby a text message today about and the response was "This is not a texting conversation. I will go out to dinner with you and discuss it because I want to concentrate on you, the discussion, and what is said." So I guess case closed until we get to go out to eat... which we haven't done by OURSELVES since October, so I wonder when we will go...

So the plan was:

1. Go off BC next month (June)
2. Have Dr up my Metformin to 1000 mg (what I was taking at Jones, currently I am on 500 mg)
3. Do progesterone suppositories (I think I took 2 a day at the Jones)
4. Try for 6 months at the most and if no BFP wrap it up and call it done and It is the way it is meant to be AND sell ALL the baby stuff overtaking my attic


That's it. Nothing more than that. NO stimming ovaries, NO Clomid, NO Follistim, NOTHING!

Bobby has stressed on numerous occasions that he is scared that we will miscarry again. He can't take losing another baby or watch me go through that pain again. I understand that, I do. I don't know how I would feel if we lost another baby, but I survived it 2 times, so I could survive again. It would suck though for sure.

Also, not having a sibling for the girls is NOT as devastating as the thought of never having a child of our own ever. They have each other. I thought when I found out it was twins, YES, we will never have to go through treatments again. I can promise I won't go through treatments again. I can't do it... the hot flashes, the time, the hormones, the sticks, the blood draws, the u/s... I can't. I don't have time now and like I said, not having a sibling for them is different for me.

I want a 3rd baby, but I will be ok if we don't have one. But I think if we don't even try I will always wonder. Does that make sense?

PS- At work so no new pics of girls on this computer, sorry.

A day late and a dollar short...

That's the story of my life, but Hey I have twins and that's my excuse (and demise financially) and I am sticking to it! But....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I enjoyed my day and gave myself a treat... pictures of my 21 month old bay-bies! Time slow down...wait let me catch up! Geesh! Go a little slower!











Getting good pictures are hard of one kid, let alone two kiddos who want to move. But I am pleased with what we got. Kristin was a HAM! Let me tell you. She was all, Hey take my picture cause I am cute, smiling and all. Lara was ON THE GO! I mean I couldn't get her to be still. The picture of them together was the very first picture and then the rest she was a blur in the pictures. Even her dress is blurry in the one of her as she was running! But I am still happy with what we got, cause it is a true reflection of my life!

Oh and just in case you didn't notice, totally trying to make up for my 3 month pause as I scraped by while doing that stupid class! Plus I figure everyone wants to see how precious the bay-bays are... cause I think they are!

Hope you all enjoyed your mother's day!

Call me a "nerd"

My final grade was posted yesterday... "A"! YAY! 4.0 maintained! I wasn't sure, this class was HARD and very intense! So I am proud of myself!

The girls are just so amazing. They do something new and say something everyday. They mimic and repeat us...so cool! We try to play with them outside everyday, weather permitting. The biggest hits are the sandbox and the tricycles. We take them for walks with their tricycles. Cracks us up as the stare at something and the tricycle starts veering off the opposite way! They LOVE dogs and get so excited when they see one. "Dog, Dog, Dog" between squeals of delight. Someday, we will have another, but I still miss Reese. I still cry for him so I can't imagine getting another dog anytime soon. Anyways, here's the girls and some of their adventures:



Lara loves to take care of her sister...



Kristin pushing Lara on the tricycle



Lara pushing Kristin.

At least they take turns (we did buy 2 tricycles though) pushing each other, Mommy gets tired sometimes.

Oh and while taking this class, the stress of hating my job still, life in general and to make myself feel better... I went back on South Beach. I have lost 15 lbs in a little over 2 months. I am exercising and I just plain feel better. Also a little prep for the possible trial for baby #3. Gotta try to get in shape even if I don't get pregnant, I needed to lose this baby weight from the girls, 20 months after them is just plain too long to carry around the extra 30-35lbs from being pregnant with them. So I hope to continue this lifestyle change and good habits and IF I am lucky I will have lost more weight and be closer to the weight I was when I got pregnant with them, just in case I get pregnant this summer. I promise I will do a post about my TTC plan and all soon.....

2 months and some change

I am SO profoundly sorry that I have been unable to update. My class for my master's/renewing my license for teaching has officially kicked my ass since January! However, I am DONE! I finished the last test last week (I wrote this post almost a week ago but was unable to post cause I wanted to add pictures, which took me until now)! As long as I don't miss more than 7 points on my paper (which I have only lost a 1/2 a point at the most on the 8 papers I had to write this semester) I will maintain my 4.0 GPA. I strive to continue to be a dork! But I am cool with that!I want to keep my 4.0 cause I CAN! I can be "smart" LOL. I have never had a 4.0 when I graduated so I would like this to be my first time so I can say I did it, and tell my daughters that I expect that too! Just kidding... kinda.

The girls are just growing and changing so fast. I swear they pick up something new everyday. Their little imaginations are kicking and it amazes me. I love being their mom and can't believe how much I love them. I just feel so overwhelmed by how much I love them.


Here's some of what we have been up to:



Chillin' in Daddy's truck on the way to the zoo



Kristin's first popcicle (Easter Day)



Lata's first popcicle (Easter Day)



My Little Chef Kristin



My Little Chef Lara

We are ready for, I think the show is "Hell's Kitchen" or something like that. They love their play kitchens, we have one inside and I bought one off craigs.list for $10 for outside. We also got a sandbox and a house (off craigs.list $20) so lots of stuff to do outside. They love their new tricycles (pics next time). We are doing alot of family activities and just love being with our girls.

I can't wait for school to let out. I am SO ready for this school year to be over, I say it every year but in May and June I MEAN it, for real for real (as the kids tell me at school). I can't wait to hang out with my babies every day and

I also am pretty sure Bobby and I are going to give it a go for baby #3....

Happy Valentine's Day 2011!

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

The girls had their 18 month appt. They are growing up TOO fast if you ask me!

Kristin- 21 lbs 14 oz (10th) 31 1/8 in (25th) and 181/2 in head (50th)

Lara- 19lbs 11oz (3rd- we moved up from less than a 3rd to 3rd YAY) and 30 1/4 in (10th) and 18 1/8 in head (45th)


Still teeny- tiny, itty bitty bay-bees. They have hit all the 18 month milestones and have done some of the 2 yr ones! OMG they will be 2 this summer!

Happy Valentine's Day! It was 70 degrees here today so we played for a few minutes outside cause it was so nice.

Been awhile...

So last post we had a new playroom! I LOVE the playroom! The Playroom ROX!!!! Spend alot of time in the playroom! Super glad we built that room. It really is the most used room in the house now.... hard to believe, huh?

The girls are doing awesome. They will be 18 months old this week. How did this happen? I can't believe it. They are getting so smart.

They are doing animal sounds, you know a Duck says "quack, quack", etc. They love being read to. I swear I read 20 books a day. I hope they are smarter than Bobby and me. They make me smile. They make me happy.

I am bad at blogging. I started back to school. So I have this class I am in and another class and hopefully a test and I will be done with my master's. ABOUT time! I should have done this while TTC, but I was so baby focused, I couldn't see past making a baby that this got left out. After starting the class, I told Bobby my 4.0 GPA wasn't going to be a 4.0 anymore. I am just not into the class. I HAVE to pass and all. But I just don't want to put all the effort into studying like I did before the girls. Now I just want to do what I have to do... I will be ok if I get a "B". And a friend was so kind to tell me, "B's get degrees". That they do, so I will keep that in mind as I go through this class and get done what I need to get done and hurry up and finish this master's.

Bobby also left to go to Texas for a training. So I was a single mom. And everyone survived!

Anyway... I feel bad about my non-blogging. But I am not too terribly exciting anymore. Not TTC. Just floating through.

Been super excited that a few of my friends have gotten BFPs here lately though.

As I type this, I am watching the girls on the monitor. NOT sleeping! Handing each other toys from one crib to another! Hilarious!

Here's the babies!

This is their new way to "play". They sit on each other's head, chest, etc. Or lay and roll

Lara says "I got you now, you may be bigger than me, but beware of the little ones"



Kristin and her laugh... she has changed so much since my colicy baby




Holy curls Batman! Where did those come from?


Lara loves puzzles and being read to. She gets excited. I hope this desire to learn continues for life!




Little "La-La" feeding her bay-bees. They both do this, but Kristin doesn't stay still for me to get many pictures of her.



All pictures in the family playroom... LOVE it! Aren't they just so darn cute? Love them! OMG 18 months this week! Geesh! Where'e my bay-bees?

Drum roll please...........

Houston, we have a playroom....

This was their first look last night of their "new room"



They squealed and twirled in their new room



We ate peanut butter cookies that Mommy made in our new room



We watched the "dough" fall outside on Mommy's snow day off from school



We looked at the snow outside beside our playroom, but the inside it 100% functional




So the room is not 100% completed, still have some finishing touches, but it is finished enough to play in it and have their toys in there! YAY!!!

Just in time for the influx of Christmas presents!