Why do people say these things?

Yesterday, I took my happy self on up to the mall to Mother.hood after deciding that I needed some sleep bras. As I stood there looking at the lacy contraptions, the sales lady asked me if I needed some help. Certainly, I am looking for your MOST comfortable sleep bra that you carry. Oh, are you expecting? Nope, I just like shopping in your overpriced maternity store. "Yes, I am." Oh when are you due? "August but my doctor said I'll probably have them in July cause we are having twins" Hysterical laughter and a slap on my shoulder, followed by "OMG, better you than me cause, one is bad enough, OMG I can't imagine 2!" WTF lady? Ummm.... if that wasn't the only maternity store in a 25 miles radius I would have walked out, but nope I still needed the freaking sleep bra.

I don't get why people feel this urge to laugh or say something when you say you are having twins.

1. Most people don't know what we went through to get these twins, so really I am happy to be pregnant at all, especially with more than one.

2. You having a baby and then getting pregnant and having them 11 months apart is NOT at all like having twins!! You were pregnant twice and didn't have 2 infants born at the same time.

3. It is not "double trouble" or whatever you think of cute.

4. The famous "Better you than me!" Yeah I know- Thank God I am even pregnant!

5. "OMG I don't know how you are going to do it" I will somehow, maybe with less sleep than you!

6. Did you want twins? See #1 and#4

I have not for a second thought that this was going to be easy. I realize twins are going to be some extra work. The thoughts of:

Are we going to be able to pay them both enough attention?

What about feeding them at the same time?

Can we give them both the same amount of time and attention?

Are we going to be able to love them the same?

Is one of them going to feel neglected?

I just don't get why people say these things to you. Usually followed there after with some twin horror story or worse their own labor/birth horror story, like "I ripped and had 22 stitches" or "My breasts became so engorged, it was almost as bad as labor" Or "I had a c-section and I got a horrible staph infection and almost bled out and died" Somehow these things don't make me feel better. I can't figure out why, but it doesn't make me any more relaxed or confident.

I haven't gotten "OMG twins- how exciting. You must be thrilled"!

Second Trimester here I come!!

The second trimester starts for me tomorrow! Woo Hoo! I am super excited and glad to be out of the "Danger Zone"! In honor of this momentous occasion- here is a belly pic of me at 12 weeks.




I am still able to wear my dress pants (I moved back up in my closet of my "fat clothes" before South Beach entered my life, a big "What Not to Wear" No-No I know) However, my "fat girl" jeans are not comfortable so I am wearing maternity jeans.

My other milestone is that the nausea has subsided alot! My 24 hour a day symptom has diminished alot! I have to admit I am happy about that. Other things are kicking in- like acid reflux and my inability to eat tomatoes. I also borrowed a Doppler from a friend and I was able to hear the babies' heartbeats this morning! That was a wonderful sound! we have our gender u/s scheduled for March 10th! I hope they will cooperate!

Next milestone will be to feel these little babies move!! OMG that will be the most wonderful thing I will ever feel in my life! At least until I get to see them and hold them!

Almost done with the 1st Trimester

We had another appointment today and got to see the twins. They really have grown and they were so cute in there.

Baby B (on the left) was moving and flipping around. Baby A (on the right obviously) was asleep at first until Baby B kept hitting the membrane and woke up Baby A. Then they were both flipping and moving. Baby B reached up and scratched his/her head! It was so cool that we could see their arms and legs and they were stretching. They wouldn't hold still so the pic isn't clear. I had asked the babies to be still and gave them a pep talk about saying "cheese" for the camera and being still, but they didn't listen. I hope that isn't what I have to look forward to for the next 18 years! Maybe it is cause they can't hear me yet. Hmmmm....

Some of the highlights going on right now, I am 12 wks 1d! Woo Hoo! I am almost done with the 1st trimester. Meaning that the nausea/ All day sickness is slowly diminishing, which is awesome! I am also slowly growing a belly. I am guessing this is probably the last week in my regular clothes, they are getting snug and I refuse to walk around uncomfortable. I am enjoying being pregnant and relishing every second.

Also, my husband is working hard on remodelling our main bathroom. I can't wait for it to be finished! Hopefully after the next 2 weekends it will be fully functional!!

I guess the biggest highlight of the day is that I graduated from the dildo cam to the belly u/s!! I wish they had told me before I sat there naked from the waist down with the paper blanket to cover myself for 45 minutes while we waited for the dr. At least he actually sits down and talks to us and we get a good 20 minutes with him.

So next u/s we should be able to see the sexes!! YAY! I am going to try to blog better as I have gotten some emails about what was going on, I am sorry but I wasn't blogging as I really didn't have anything too exciting going on cause I feel like I went to work, came home, slept to wake up and do it all over again. I figured no one wants to hear that... so I just didn't post. Sorry! Please forgive me!

Its like "Ground Hog Day"

Babies week 10!

Baby A- doubled in size since last week! WOW! And was doing twirls!! My little dancer!

Baby B- was moving little legs, almost seemed like it was running. How cute!!

And here I am 9 weeks and 4 days. Bobby had to remind me to smile as I felt like vomiting but he said "his children" might not appreciate the "I am about to vomit" face I was making at the time. (I'll remember they are 'his' once they are born and want to be fed and changed every 2 hours during the night- HIS children will want him!! )

I have to admit I am not good at blogging here lately, but it is because I feel like "Ground Hog Day". I wake up, feel nauseous, dry heave some, try to not vomit as I brush my teeth, eat some, try not to vomit, try to poop, feel some indigestion, fart some, yawn excessively, try to poop again, nauseous , eat, try not to vomit, fart some more, yawn some more, eat a snack, go home, pass out on the couch for awhile, eat, feel nauseous, get ready for bed, dry heave as I brush my teeth, and lay in bed and groan and moan until I fall asleep proceeded by wake up during the night numerous times and getting up to pee (at least once), to start my day all over again. I am certainly not bitching or complaining, I am just not very exciting. My silver lining everyday as I dry heave, is that that means those babies are doing well! So I relish my "all day sickness"! I thought the other day about writing a post about what no one tells you about what happens when you are pregnant, but it was a thought and too much energy in getting up and actually typing. So other than growing the twins- I am in Ground Hog Day until at least around Valentine's Day! I hope!

Went back to "regular" Ob- LOVE him!! I go back in 2 more weeks!! He promised me more pics!! I have to admit the pics at Jones are clearer!! But I ain't bitchin'- I love seeing those little hearts beatin' and them babies dancin'!! Off to bed!

Exercising at 9 weeks + 1 day???

We saw the twins again today! How wonderful to see those little hearts beating! I love it!! And they grew so much we could get them in one u/s pic. Not only did we see the hearts beating, we got to see the babies moving! Yep my little ones were moving- and not only moving- but they appeared to be........ exercising!

Baby A- which I have decided is a girl. Just cause I want her to be. Anyway- she was doing "crunches". My little girl worried about her figure already!! She doesn't realize that at 2.5 cm she has fab abs!

Baby B- which I think is a boy- same reasoning cause I want him to be. I think he is a boy for 2 reasons: 1. he was upside down- seems like a boy thing to do and 2. he was "flexing" his arms like he was in Mr Universe Body Building Competition! Watch out Arnold Schwarzenegger- MY boy is practicing now and he is only 9 weeks old gestational age!!

Actually, seeing them move was amazing!! It was another milestone that is truly amazing and breath taking!

I also got my dismissal from Dr Never Smiles! I am no longer at the RE's- I am a "boring pregnant lady with twins, what else can they do for me?" and "Dr Never Smiles does not deliver babies" . She sent me off with a hug and a kiss and told me to keep them updated and to definitely bring the babies by. So I got the boot- in a good way. However, it does seem like a bad break up. It was bittersweet, "good-bye" to Jones.

I guess now I have to come up with a name for my regular OB, who I love too. He is a good dr, and I think I have a name brewing already. I see him next week- I hope he does an u/s next week too!! I am spoiled! But I LOVE seeing those twins!!

News spreads like Wildfires around here....

So not long after my u/s, I swear the whole world knew I was having twins- I know I posted it on here so the world did know, but I am seriously getting phone calls from people leaving me messages like "I heard your good news, call me!" "I heard through the grapevine you've got a secret". I mean I did tell the world on my blog but I really had tried to keep it on the down low in "real life" as I am not through my first trimester yet and I am paranoid. I feel like I haven't even gotten to really enjoy my news cause now I have to call and say "who did you hear that from?" and then to find out it isn't someone that I told, but someone who told someone who heard it from their grandmother's sister's husband's second cousin's niece twice removed.

The bad part of it is that it is mainly my Mom. I mean I know she is overly excited to have twins and be a grandmother again and for all I know Bobby's parents are doing the same thing, but they don't live in the same state so I am not getting voice mails telling me they already know my news but to call them anyway! It just annoys the piss out of me that I can't even tell "our" news myself. I mean Bobby and I are the ones that are pregnant. We are the ones that went through the treatments and ups and downs and being poked and prodded and someone telling us when to "be intimate", I mean our private life was no longer private. I know my family and his family too in their own way had the roller coaster ride with us. But damn- I just wanted to have my own little 'secret' for awhile and just adjust on my own and after week 13 THEN let the news spread!

Is this rant my own little HCG hormone thing? Or is it legitimate? Do I have the right to be annoyed? I know everyone is excited for us, but is waiting through the first trimester that hard?

Oh and I read on a couple of the blogs I follow that it is De-Lurker week. So leave me a comment! I only bite if you ask nicely... and I know you don't have any blood borne diseases!!

And then there were 2....

That's right ladies and gentlemen.... we have TWINS! We are in totally shock and amazement. We saw and heard the BEST thing ever today- HEARTBEATS! It was music to my soul- I just literally laid there and cried. Baby A had a heartbeat of 164 and Baby B had 158. I have never seen heartbeats or heard them before.... well not being pregnant. We are just over the moon to have 2 healthy babies.

I was so excited I came home and puked my guts up. Actually, Dr Smiles had to call me in a script for an anti-nausea med as I couldn't keep water down. So there you have it.....

TWINS!!!! WOW!