Sunday, November 30, 2008

What happened?

Bobby and I went to the Jones Institute yesterday for a Follie scan and blood work.

When we went on Weds there were 3 eggs. Yesterday, there were 2 good ones. WTF? What happened? Where did the other one go? Makes me a little nervous.... they had extended my Follistim on Wednesday when I called to get my dosage and changed my appointment time from Friday to Saturday. Then yesterday to have "lost" an egg... how does that happen? And they weren't much bigger. Each ovary has one follicle- which is different for me cause usually my left ovary doesn't do anything. But I have a 17mm on my right and 15 mm on my left.

I know it only takes one, but still. This cycle is making me nervous.

Trigger shot tonight... IUI on Tuesday. I need something cause I am not feeling very confident this month.

I have had some moments cause last Thanksgiving I got a BFP- this year STILL ttc a baby. UGHH! I got pregnant two times on my own and now since the miscarriages and starting fertility treatments- NOTHING! I don't get how this is so hard for some and really easy for others. Enough of my ranting....

I hope this cycle that seems to be falling apart will work.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

1, 2, 3....

I went this morning and had my Follie scan and blood work. I have 3 nice eggs growing in there. Two of them were 11mm and one 12.5 mm. I come back early from our trip to my in laws for a Follie scan and b/w on Friday. We will see what's going on then- IUI Monday?! I am off to NC!
Happy Thanksgiving! I am so excited! No South Beach for me that day!

Sunday, November 23, 2008


Well here we go again....

Bobby and I went to the Jones Institute on Friday for CD 3 (even though it was CD 2) u/s and blood work. Round 2 of Follistim began last night- this cycle on the study I am strictly doing Follistim injections... no Ganirelix!

Bobby had a dentist appointment earlier that morning and had gotten some bad news from the dentist. He is slowly losing the bone mass in his jaw... so slowly but surely he will lose his molars. Nice. That's just great. He needs to go see a periodontist. So he was all gloom and doom.

So he thinks all doctors are full of bad news and if they aren't giving you bad news, they are pumping you full of hope and get you full of excitement and belief it can happen until you take a pregnancy test and it is a BFN. He even called this an "emotional roller coaster". Nice. Dear that is how I have felt for the last 19 months. Crazy. 19 months- WOW!

My visit with the u/s showed 6 follicles developing- crazy considering I wasn't taking any meds at that moment. They were all small- a 6mm follicle and the rest were 5. But there were 2 on my left ovary- which is odd as that ovary doesn't ever do shit. It just sits there- what it's exact function is I haven't found out yet. Cause neither ovary has made a viable egg yet that wanted to implant and make us become a family.

So yet again... maybe this month! Fingers crossed.. prayers going up.... shots going in...and I am going to "relax" cause now that I "least expect it"- I am thinking this could be it.

I do have to say I love my hubby! He sent my mom and me off to Blacksburg to watch my Hokies play football against Duke. It was cold- 29 degrees at kickoff. Woo Hoo! All I can say is Thank God they won! At least it made it worth sitting out there!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

The results are....

Different month... same freaking results! Don't know why I would have thought it would be different! Actually, I already knew the result was going to be as such... but I still held out hope it would throw me for a loop.

I don't really know what is next since I have never been on these meds before. I don't know if I have to take a break to rest the ole poly cystic ovaries or if we get to go ahead and inject myself with some more high powered hormones. I don't know- I guess I will call Nurse Beth tomorrow.

BTW- I didn't even shed a tear. Guess I am becoming immune!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I did it!!!

I lost 50 lbs!!! I did it!! I met my goal before I got pregnant!

I hopped on the scale this morning and that little device that has been my nemesis for years showed me one pound less making it a total of 50 lbs!! I have a friend that sent me an email with pics of ground beef when I lost 18 lbs and told me to think about my weight loss in terms of that. So then I thought of picking up 50lbs of ground beef at the store and wow- what a porker!! It would almost fill up your cart- I was carrying around enough extra weight to be equivalent to a kindergartner. Holy Shit what a porker!

Here's a pic of me at Thanksgiving with my niece/god daughter (Isn't she a cutey?) I on the other hand, look like a fat cow! When I saw this pic after Thanksgiving- I hardly recognized myself.

This is me last week with my cute little doggy by my side!

I am so excited I just had to share! So my body HAS to be ready for a baby or babies now! My doctor said Lose weight to increase your chances of getting pregnant- Done! I do feel a TON better and I think I am physically in the best shape of my adult life.
I know some of you thought' "She got her BFP" or "She's got her quads"! Nope- I am NOT testing early! That will wait until Sunday. It has been a GOOD week so far *fingers crossed*!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Tag- you're it!

Just a little trivia since I am in the 2ww and I have nothing going on... "How I met the Love of My Life" to follow

Fun stuff!

Answer the following questions with single word responses. Then pass on the award to 7 other bloggers:
1. Where is your cell phone? purse
2. Where is your significant other? Work
3. Your hair color? highlighted
4. Your mother? talkative
5. Your father? deceased
6. Your favorite thing? Reese's
7. Your dream last night? forgotten
8. Your dream/goal? Family
9. The room you’re in? classroom
10. Your hobby? reading
11. Your fear? miscarriage
12. Where do you want to be in six years? mother
13. Where were you last night? home
14. What you’re not? Rich
15. One of your wish list items? mother
16. Where you grew up? Virginia
17. The last thing you did? talked
18. What are you wearing? clothes
19. Your T.V.? HD
20. Your pet? Reese
21. Your computer? laptop
22. Your mood? normal
23. Missing someone? always
24. Your car? Yukon
25. Something you’re not wearing? jacket
26. Favorite store? B.Moss
27. Your Summer? awesome
28. Love someone? whole-heartedly
29. Your favorite color? blue
30. When is the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? Wednesday

Are there any of my bloggie friends that haven't done this yet? I think I have seen it on most of the blogs I follow, if not- consider yourself TAGGED! You're it!!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Time moves... Oh so slowly

I have had numerous "How did it go?" and "what now?" comments on how the IUI went and the obvious- when can I test to see if I am pregnant. So here goes...

The IUI was pretty uneventful for me- took like maybe 20 seconds- the prep time is the longest part. Poor Bobby, he had the hardest part. But he managed to survive. Dr. Never Smiles did the procedure and that makes me happy as I don't think it is right to get pregnant without her. After all she is my dr and knows her shit. She asked me if I was prepared for the side effect- which is getting pregnant! Well I WANT that side effect!! She made me laugh!!

So now we wait... I was given the instructions to start my progesterone tonight and I can test on the 17th of November. Well, I will actually test on the 16th as that is a Sunday and I will need time to either be ecstatic or have my pity party. So that's it. The 2 week wait (2ww) begins. This is the most difficult part of the whole cycle... waiting. As you know I am not very patient... so this is the hardest part for me. Also the progesterone plays a game with me... gives me all kinds of pregnancy symptoms. I now know to ignore anything I "feel" during the 2ww.

I do appreciate all the prayers and support from everyone. I can use the support of my friends, especially when dealing with infertility and the crazy ups and downs that I have been going through for months. Thanks so much!

So now we wait.....