Friday, December 11, 2009
Well they girls didn't! But Bobby did!! And yes, I laughed at him! He said "It was there first time on Santa's lap, we will never have the first time again!"
Aren't they the cutest little things ever??? Damn, I made cute kids!! If I do say so myself!
We also had our 4 month check up and shots at the pediatricians. So it went something like this:
Kristin- 12 lb 1 oz- 23.25 in- 10th percentile for both height and weight
Lara- ll lbs- 22.5 in- 5th for height and 3rd for weight
Ok so I have little wee ones!
We discussed cereal, sleeping through the night (cause we still aren't), Kristin's constipation and reflux, breastfeeding, and Spitting up and IF this Colic is EVER going to end!
So since rice cereal can cause constipation, we are starting with Oatmeal cereal instead. We will try that on Saturday- should be interesting.
Giving Kristin yet again another medicine to try and make her poop. Come on child and poop on a regular basis. I know it has to hurt and it makes her cranky. Dr B said we should be on the home stretch of Colic and it should be ending soon. God I hope so!! She screamed last night for an hour and 40 mins and then all of a sudden she stopped slept for 10 mins and was an angel after that! Like having Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
They got some shots and we were off!
Visiting Santa was quite the adventure. I waited to dress them until we only had 3 people in front of us in line- because lo and behold as soon as we picked them up off of Santa's lap- I was once again covered in puke. Ughh!! How many times in a 24 hour time period can 1 person be spit up on?? I will keep track and let you know.
As for me and Bobby. We are in a "compromise" right now. He wants me to be more specific and tell him exactly what I want him to do. So I am going to work on not being pissed that I have to tell him exactly what to do and just tell him cause I assume that he knows that if the girls need to be changed- that he should change them and then he can go play on the computer. But we are working on that.
My New Year's resolution is to get over my anger and just tell him what to do without resentment. We'll see how that goes too.......
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
So yesterday, my hubby had to have some warranty things done on his car, so he came to school and got my car and went about his day- which did NOT consist of watching the girls cause he had "stuff to do".
My friend Kate and I, well we IM each other throughout the day. It is nice, I get to vent some and she does too. We don't do it all day, but we write down what's going on and support each other during the day. Sometimes it takes us awhile to write back, all depends on what is going on. So anyway...
We were discussing that my hubby would like to have another baby (yes you heard me correctly). My response was something of- "of course he would because he doesn't do shit to help me."
So when he came to pick me up I was in a meeting, I came back and he was at my desk on my computer and I saw that the IM was scrolled back to the top. I didn't say anything, but the rest of the night all I heard was "Well, since I don't do shit" or something to that effect. I told him I thought we were over that, but apparently it isn't. I mean I know it isn't because I am not over it, but I can't say anything to "make" him help me. So I just don't say anything else, why bother? There's no point.
He "thinks" he is helping me and I feel he isn't so why? It only makes us both upset and angry, and since I can't stand arguing what's the point in continuing? So I tell my friends and my blog and all how he doesn't help. I am not keeping it all inside and now I have come to learn that a lot of men just don't help. They "think" or "feel" that they are, but their spouse feels they aren't.
The biggest thing of all this is that he read MY stuff! I have NEVER gone through his stuff. Frankly, I don't give a shit about his emails or text messages or cell phone calls, and now I just don't have the energy to be "sneaky", I am just TOO TIRED. If he wanted to cheat or had someone on the side... I will kindly help him pack his shit and leave. In Beyonce's terms "To the left, to the left, everything you own in a box to the left." Followed by, "You don't know about me, I can have another you in a minute" Except I don't want another him... I'd find one that helps me!! HA take that Bobby! I mean why the fuck does he feel that insecure about our marriage that he would read my stuff??? I asked him that but I didn't really give him a chance to answer. Because I was too busy getting the girls ready for bed- by myself as usual. Then Kristin had a melt down and I held her as he rolled over and went to sleep and kindly snored for Kristin and me! Thanks asshole!
I should precipitate this by this is what happened on Thanksgiving. My whole family got together at my sister's and I had fed the girls (notice once I again I said "I") and pumped and was all nice a full so I laid down on the floor (as not to bother or take up any room on the couch to keep anyone from not having a seat to watch the game) My bil and sister were holding the girls, BIL says to Bobby let's go watch the game on my new plasma. Bobby turns to me and holds out Kristin and says "Here, you aren't doing anything." Are you fucking kidding me??? I never get 5 minutes to myself, I mean I have held a baby while trying to pee! BIL says basically, "Courtney, never gets to do nothing- we got this, we can take the girls up to the room, they don't need anything and even if they do it's 2 vs 2!" Really Bobby?? Everyone else sees that I don't get a break, why can't my husband? Why am I STILL having this conversation?
The only time I am away from the girls I am at work! Then people STILL want something from me! Someone is wanting something from me ALWAYS- whether it is the girls, the kids at school, or my husband!! Someone ALWAYS wants something!! I want time where NOONE wants something!! PLEASE!!!
Seriously, I worry about my marriage. No one prepared me for the fact that having these twins would drive such a rift between us. I mean I knew it would change my marriage but not to this extreme.
I try saying this to him but all it does is turn into a fight and I am tired of the fighting. I am not a fighter!
I feel like giving up!
And now all I have is my blog to be honest- cause he doesn't know I have one!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Last year on Thanksgiving day, I gave myself injections of Follistim. We had to leave from Bobby's parents house early (like 5 am) on Friday to go have a dr appt with the u/s machine and blood work. I saw 6 follies that day only to have them reduce down each time I went AND then on IUI day... there were 2!! I felt so alone and I was scared that we would never have kids. I was talking about IVF and having to wait cause we would need a second mortgage or an equity line of credit on our house. Plus I knew that we would have to wait cause I wouldn't be able to take off everyday from school for the blood work and u/s.
Now a year later- I can't believe it.
I am thankful for my girls and thankful that they are healthy! I am thankful I am their mom! I am thankful because they are the cutest things I ever made! I am thankful that they are growing and smile and coo and all the wonderful stuff they do... because they are mine! I have SO much to be thankful for!!!
PS- I am also Thankful for Thanksgiving- my favorite holiday!! NO presents- just FOOD AND FAMILY!!!
Monday, November 2, 2009
"The Fam" (all I see is the inter tube of fat around my waist aka muffin top)
Girls with the pumpkins
Scary Ghost Lara and Spooky Spider Kristin
So this has been a long time coming.
I haven't been as good at posting since the girls were born because of alot of things. But mainly because I feel like I would be lying. Lying to you because of all the emotions I have had since I gave birth.
Honestly, since I have had the girls, I no longer feel like myself. I have lost a part of myself because of all the stuff going on. First, giving birth and the aftermath of having twins is the hardest thing I have ever done. After I delivered the girls vaginally, I had "things" to deal with. Mostly dealing with what goes on in the delivery room, the stuff we all knows happens but it is hard to take when it is you. It took me a few weeks to get over that.
Secondly, I underestimated how hard parenthood is. I didn't realize the sacrifices and how EXHAUSTING it is. At first, the lack of sleep and the weeks of having a few hours makes "Courtney think she is going crazy". I hear the girls crying even when they aren't crying, makes you wonder if I am going crazy, huh? Maybe a little postpartum depression??? I think so.... or not, maybe it is the lack of husband support.
Third, my husband and I are having ALOT of issues. I don't think we are on the same page. I feel like he doesn't so shit to help me. He has worked more overtime since the girls have been born than he has ever in his life. When my hubby works overtime he is gone for 72 hours straight, his normal shifts are 24 hours long, so overtime makes him be gone 3 days in a row. That's 3 days and 3 nights!!! Try doing that with twins alone! I did and it made me be a really ugly person. Then when he did come home, he did everything but be inside helping me. He has started to mow the neighbor's lawn too. He tore down our sun room to build the girls a playroom... cause really they need a playroom now, right? Seriously?? He never once came home after being gone for 24 hours, let alone 72 hours, and said "Honey, I realize you have been alone with them for "blank number of" hours. I got this. Take a shower or a nap, I see you are in the same clothes that you were in when I left "blank number of" days ago, here let me help you". After a huge screaming match- we came to a decision- he thinks I am ungrateful and crazy and I think he doesn't do shit to help me and that we will never have sex until he does. How's that?
Not to mentions that Kristin has Colic. She was having 4 crying/screaming episodes a day, lasting anywhere from 30 mins to 4 hours. GOOD TIMES!!!Wear that hat for days in a row. It was enough to make the Pope lose his shit and curse.
Put all that together and lack of sleep and feeling like I was "alone" and it makes for a pretty miserable person. In the middle of all that, Bobby wanted to take Reese to the vet and discuss "quality of life". I went and basically said that I wasn't putting the dog down anytime soon. Some days he is the only thing in the house that kept me from losing my shit.
It is getting better around the house- except Bobby still thinks he does more than the average man in helping with the babies- but I think it has more to do with the fact that I went back to work and I feel "normal". I may not be sleeping all the way through the night yet, but I like being out in "the real world". I am NOT Stay at Home Mom material, I am proud to admit that I am woman enough to admit that that is not a good thing for me. I look forward to picking the girls up from the sitter (who I was friends with in high school and her mom was my cheerleading coach in Rec league), so I don't feel guilty leaving them either. Being back at work makes me appreciate the time I do spend with them. I can handle Kristin's colic episodes better and that makes me feel like a better mom. Cause I wasn't feeling like I was a good one for the whole time they had been on this Earth.
So anyway, that's how I felt and I am sorry. But I felt like you needed an explanation on why I couldn't write about how wonderful everything was, cause for me it wasn't. I wanted to have a baby and I wanted to be pregnant and both were not what I thought it would be like... made me feel guilty and shitty about myself. I started thinking- maybe that was why I was "infertile" in the first place, maybe God knew I'd be a shitty ass mom and I fucked with it by going and getting pregnant.
Whatever it may be, I am glad to have my girls and everyday they amaze me. They are certainly the cutest things I ever made!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
So here they are on Sunday in their "matchy match" outfits. That is as "matchy" as I get. I love Car.ter's and their 2 onesies on a hanger- makes me be able to coordinate without making them "match". They are fraternal twins and even if they were identical I would still want them to be individuals. My mom thinks it is cute and says all the twins she knows liked dressing alike- so I guess they will continue to get matching outfits- I just don't have to dress them in them at the same time!!
Even though they both had a "little" cold, they were pretty smiley for us to take their pics. We went to Sea.rs to get their pics done and they told us 5 mins, we waited 45 and they lost their shit so we left. Went home and put a white sheet on the recliner and voila! And probably saves us $200 too! Bonus!
And last but not least: Here's Reese with his babies! Kristin was starting to have a meltdown, she could only take so many pics and we took alot to get a few that were good.
We are going to visit Pop and Little Grandma this weekend for Great Grandma's 80th birthday. The girls will wear their Halloween costumes!! Oh they are so cute!!
I am back to work and managing that well. I like being back to work- makes me appreciate the time I do have with them. Plus, I can handle Kristin's 8pm Colic fit better. I have more patience and since I missed the rest of them through the day, I am not as frustrated. Plus, FINALLY they are sleeping 5+ hours!! I think that helps me mentally too! I know I am not SAHM material, I just can't do it. Although I like being a teacher and having off holidays and the summer- I do like the structure working provides- geesh I am a kid really!
More pics to come after the Halloween bash! I guess I am getting pretty boring- I don't have anything exciting happening anymore. Hopefully the girls will start to be more entertaining soon, like breaking out some new tricks.
Friday, October 9, 2009
The girls are 2 months old- WOW!! Went to pediatrician on Monday and the girls got their first shots! Well the first ones I saw- they got some in the hospital. They got clean bills of health and he told me how beautiful they are and once again how beautifully their heads are shaped. I guess that is a good thing- no cone heads here!
Kristin weighs 10lbs and 4 oz and is 22 inches long. He upped her reflux meds and said she probably did have some colic. My poor bay-be!
Lara weighs 8lbs and 14 oz and is 21 inches. He said she was growing well and is "catching" her sister!
I go back to work on Monday! BLAH!! Do I have to?
Kristin (left) and Lara (right)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Lara is on the left and Kristin is on the right.
This is Kristin. She is my eldest and is already showing her personality. She is demanding and likes to be the center of attention. Totally her father!! She also LOVES to cuddle with you, she makes her daddy cry when she smiles. She even smiled at him first- made me mad as I am the one that carried her for 37 weeks! Ughh! Can't she smile at ME first! Kristin was diagnosed with Acid reflux. She also seems to have a touch of Colic. She cries alot and makes me feel like an inadequate mother as I can't soothe her. It is frustrating and makes for alot of stress. I feel for her on the reflux cause it sucked ass while I was pregnant and I could bitch about it. She can't, well... I guess she does with her crying. I wish I could help her. Really makes me upset.
This is my youngest, Lara. She is totally the "baby" in the family. She loves to be held and cuddled too. She smiles and loves to look around. She is an easy going child and I fear for my sanity when she is a teenager. I think she will be my hand full then!
On a good note- they went 5 hours between a feeding the night before last- from 9:30 pm to 2:45 am. Gotta work on sleeping through that time. Lara got up but wanted to be changed. Then last night they slept for 4 hour stretches at a time again! I almost feel like a normal person!
The coolest thing happened this morning! I had the girls on their activity mat and they were looking at each other and smiling and cooing. So I got out the video camera and tried to get them to do it again. Of course they didn't BUT Kristin rolled over from her belly to her back! AND I got it on tape!!! I'll never catch stuff on video again probably- especially after I go back to work in 11 days- BLAH!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Like our nieces and nephew, Bobby had to take the girls to see his expensive toys. Although the girls didn't get to ride around in the truck yet, you should have seen the grown men at the fire station ogle over my babies. Cracked me up.
I guess the funniest part is that Kristin pooped all over the fire chief's office! Hehe!!
Bobby went back to work yesterday and so far we survived the first night without him. He works 24 hours on and then 24 hours off. However, he had to work overtime so he is gone for 72 hours straight. It is a LONG night by yourself when 2 babies are screaming and you can't get to the 2nd one fast enough. Thankfully we all survived 'til morning. Now 2 more nights.
I have some wonderful friends that have brought me food and came and helped hold the babies so I could take a shower. The girls are getting into a little bit better of a sleep pattern at night, especially Lara. I have to wake her to feed her every 3 hours when her sister is up, although Kristin is up WAY more than every 3 hours. You'd think the smaller baby would need more attention and food, but nope! Hopefully, soon we will get on a better sleep schedule, at least for my sanity.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Wow the girls are 2 weeks old today and although I get VERY few hours (2 if I am REALLY lucky) of sleep in a row- I am still alive and so are they. Which is a good thing!
The girls had their 2 week old pedi appt yesterday. Kristin weighs 7lb 6oz and is doing well, no more jaundice. Lara is 5lb 14 oz and she also got a clean bill of health. Dr B was super happy as they had gained 12 and 11 oz respectively after the initial loss after birth. He will see them back in 2 weeks for their 1st round of shots. More poor babies! I hate shots although I have done them to myself, I still don't like them!
So here are my bay-bies enjoying their activity mat. They like being with each other and often I catch them staring at each other! So cute! Lara even sucked on the back of Kristin's head while they waited for me to get set up so they could eat. Everyone around here is learning patience! (Lara is the "top" baby and Kristin on the "bottom")
Friday, August 14, 2009
This is Kristin Jean- my jaundice baby! Already showing that she is the oldest child- very independent!
This is Lara Anne- my big eater! She'd stay attached to the breast ALL day and night if she could!
Bobby and I are overwhelmed and overjoyed! Hard to believe tomorrow they will be a week old! More pics to come when I actually get some sleep- more than 1 hour at a time! Wouldn't change it for the world!
BTW- Reese has a new attitude! Suddenly he is running- I mean running to "guard" the girls. He hasn't been this spunky in awhile! The girls have taken at least 2 years off of him! I guess the girls give him something to do!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Kristin was born at 5:30pm. She was 6lbs 14 oz and 19.5 inches long. Lara was born at 6:19pm. She was 5lbs 6.5oz and 18.5 inches long. Mom and babies are doing just fine.
Congratulations Courtney & Bobby!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
So as you can see my belly has dropped! 37 weeks and 3 days with twins is NO joke!
I have been wavering today with the thoughts of "Thank God I won't be pregnant anymore" to "Holy shit I am going to be responsible for 2 people for the rest of my life!"
I did this before I got married too. Thinking I'd be someone's wife which seems very grown up, somehow this seems even more grown up!
All I want is some sleep tonight and a safe and healthy delivery for me and the twins!
Updates to follow!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Anyway, he teased me for a few minutes about going to the hospital not getting my way so signing myself out and refusing medical treatment- which is only partially true. I didn't want anything to stop labor and I think I can rest better at home. I mean seriously who would rather be in a hospital bed than in your own bed?
He checked and I am 4 cm and he is like How are you still pregnant? I don't know, that's why I pay him! He is in surgery the next few days and wants to induce me but is checking his schedule and will call me and let me know- Wed, Thurs or Fri! Just depends! Now that I know he isn't making me wait until 39 weeks I am a much calmer and happier pregnant lady! I will probably go into labor on my own as I "rest" (which I am seriously going to do), no more walking or anything to MAKE myself go into labor- so it will probably happen on its own!
Updates to follow as soon as I know myself! And a last belly shot if I get so adventurous- remember I am relaxing!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Everyone wants me up and walking and all I really want to do is sleep, I am exhausted. IF I jump start labor today I won't be good during the whole process as I am completely worn out!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Here I am at 35 wks and 6 days. (Currently I am 36wk 2 days) It just might be my last belly pic.
I went to the dr on Weds. and he did an internal exam (can't say I am looking forward to that again!) And lo and behold, I am 3cm dilated and thinned out (he didn't say how much). I was surprised, although I have been having contractions, just not regular ones, I figured they were just Braxton Hicks. I am having contractions still, just not regular enough to go into the hospital.
Now I am a mad woman trying to get little things done before they arrive. I do have my wonderful friend Kate, updating as soon as she gets word and if she can with pics. If you are on Facebook, look there too.
So hopefully next post will be of the 2 girls!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
I am 34 weeks today. Holy crap times flies! I never thought I would be here- huge and still pregnant. I never thought this day would come but alas it is and I have to admit I am a little more than scared. Since the moment that pregnancy test read "pregnant" I have worried. Worried about staying pregnant to making it to viability to my thoughts now of "OMG I am going to be a mom". After they are born, am I going to be like my mom? Will I ALWAYS be worried for them for the rest of my life? Not only do you lose sleep during infancy but then I have to worry once they start kindergarten, then they'll start to drive, and then date and then go off to college, cause let's face it... I know what I was doing! So now my thoughts are "OMG, I WILL NEVER SLEEP AGAIN!!!" For right now, I will try to worry about did I wash everything in baby safe detergent and do we have enough diapers to last me so I don't have to try to venture out with 2 babies in the middle of the night!! Cause I am sure as hell not focusing on the delivery!! I mean cause that absolutely scares the ever living shit out of me!!
Anyway- here I am 33 weeks pregnant- no I did not develop a growth on my belly- I burnt myself cooking so now I have decided I am not cooking anything more than frozen entrees until my belly shrinks cause it hurts to get a burn and the babies did not like my belly being burnt either.
After my house guests left, we have been steadily working around here to prepare ourselves for our 2 new members. Bobby's parents came last week and his mom painted a mural on the wall for the girls in the nursery. It is the best picture I could take and the flash makes a highlighted spot but I tried my best.
Where the flash makes it lighter is a waterfall and there are monkeys in the trees which are not seen cause of the flash. I decided Bobby is the daddy lion, I am the zebra (cause that one if my favorite it looks so real like it could walk off the wall) and the girls are the monkeys.
I have an appt tomorrow and you never know- I might just put up new u/s pics tomorrow! We'll see what the good doc has to say.
Oh, update on the doggy. Reese is getting slower. I just can't get up the nerve to put him down yet. It is the saddest thing ever for me. I had Reese WAY longer than I have had Bobby. I want Reese to met his sisters- but then again am I being selfish? He is still eating and he follows us around, but you can tell when he has a rougher day than others. He is starting to poop in the house some cause I think he can't feel it all the time. I am just not ready and it seems to me that Reese isn't ready yet either. About a week ago I thought "Ok this is it, he has had several really bad days in a row and maybe we should do it now" and then it is like he knew it and suddenly got his toys out of his basket and played fetch a few times and chewed on his favorite toys. I don't know. I do know I love him and this is one of the hardest decisions in my life. By the way, if you are in the middle of deciding about putting your dog down, DON'T watch Marley and Me! Also, you probably should watch it pregnant either. I knew what happens, I still watched it, and then laid on the floor crying into Reese's fur for 30 minutes- he looked at me like I was crazy but gave me kisses anyway- How can you put that to sleep when he looks so trusting into your eyes and loves you so much unconditionally??
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I also have the most wonderful husband ever cause I was able to do this yesterday:
He went to Big.Lots and bought me this wonderful 16x9 pool with a pump! I have wanted to be swimming cause it is SO hot!! He set it all up and everything and when I got home from school he said "Let's go swimming!" Oh it was like heaven! For a few hours I was almost weightless! I floated on my noodles and loved every second!! I can't wait to get in it today! I just need that pool to last until I have these babies!!
I welcomed my third trimester this morning with feeling like I was back in my first trimester! I was back to being nauseous and throwing up... sorry. However, it did ease up.
I go back to the maternal fetal medicine dr tomorrow so more pics of my girls! I love seeing them!
Only 11 more school days left! Hopefully, I will survive... cause my body is betraying me quickly! Then "my" made up bedrest as well as floating in my pool. Ahhh... I love being a teacher for half of June, July and most of August!!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Here I am in all my glory! Sorry my hair is a mess cause I am TIRED with all capital letters!!
So far, I am moving right along and I don't have any craziness to report. I have alot of aches and pains I didn't know came along with pregnancy. No one warned me about it. I began having acid reflux at week 8 and it has not let up, in fact it has gotten worse. Dr Talks gave me a script for prescription Zantac extra strength! It kinda helps but seriously- no one told me about this acid reflux crap! I also developed carpal tunnel in both hands! Och! Talk about painful. I didn't know that carpal tunnel felt like this, NOW I know and although Dr Talks assured me it would go away after delivery- I am having a hard time believing him. It keeps me awake at night cause my hands ache so bad! I am now wearing braces on my arms during the day to try and help me sleep better. Those are my 2 major complaints- for now anyways!!
I do, however, enjoy feeling the babies move. I can totally tell when they are awake and when they are asleep. I also know for sure they like ice cream! They are their mother's daughters after all! The wonderful part of pregnancy is knowing that they are "ours" and I love them already. I love watching Bobby get excited when they kick and he feels them. I like watching my stomach move like I have some foreign bodies in there- oh yeah I do! I can't wait to see their little feet and hands through my skin. That's the beauty of being pregnant.
I am anxious for school to be out! 16 more days to wake up!! Aghhh! Then I will only leave the house for food trips and dr's appts!! Well maybe more than that! We'll have to see!
The nursery is in a total standstill- LONG story! Basically my sister, mom, and 2 yr old niece had to move in cause my sister left her asshole of a husband! So ummm... yeah, there is no nursery action going on in my house.
The best part of no nursery action means Bobby has FINALLY finished the remodel of the bathroom! I took a shower in my new shower last night and this morning too! I will do before and after pics soon. We (I say "we" I mean Bobby) has a few little things to do- like hang the mirrors and stuff, but other than that FULLY functional!! WOO HOO!!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
And we also saw 2... yes 2 placentas!!! Scare the ever living shit out of me for nothing.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
What a weekend!
First, I guess I should start by saying that I love my dog, Reese (like grease only no "g") I have had Reese before I met my hubby. He has been around for awhile and is no spring chicken anymore. We started giving him glucosamine and chondroitin years ago. Recently we have started him on Ryma.dyl for arthritis.
So this weekend it has been hard for me to watch as my poor doggy has slipped on our tile floor in the kitchen. The first time, he didn't yelp but the second time he did. Then he scooted himself outside and squatted to pee for the first time since he was a puppy and learned to lift his leg like the "big dogs" he saw at the doggy park. So my heart is breaking as I realize my dog is getting older and no matter how much I love him, I can't heal his hips. Bobby came home and checked Reese out and said we didn't need to take him to the emergency vet , but to try and keep him off of it. Yeah, I'll try not to eat too. Same concept.
My bright idea has been to quarantine the dog. I have barricaded the kitchen and tile off so the dog won't fall and slip. I pulled every area rug with the skid stuff on the back and made a path to the back door so he doesn't fall since he has to go out. I have also been trying to stay put so he will not try to follow me around the house. So far so good. But he is still tender you can tell, good thing he was already going to the vet tomorrow at 9 am. Hopefully the good vet will have some advice and meds for the dog.
The craziest thing happened last night as I got up to pee in the middle of the night. I never cut the light on in the bathroom but for some reason I did. And as I sat there peeing, all of the sudden, a mouse ran across the floor. Yes, a mouse!! WTF?? So today I went and bought traps to set up so hopefully we can catch the uninvited guest. As I sat on the couch this afternoon, I heard the trap snap so I was scared to go look, and lo and behold, no mouse. Sneaky bastard. Luckily I have learned how to set the trap and not lose my fingers. I am just grossed out I have a mouse in my house. Bobby seems to think because of the construction going on in our house when they were coming in and out and left the door open then the mouse just strolled in and now it is like "Oops!" If my dog wasn't lame I would expect him to do something about the mouse, but since he is a gimp I will excuse him. Ugghhh! I am grossed out about the mouse.
After all.... when it rains it pours.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Yesterday was our u/s and I came home and was sicker than a dog! Ughh!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
The octo-mom sure has caused some uproar, craziness, and talk around the country. I am going to keep a lot of personal feelings to myself with regard to her. What this post is about.... states are now trying to make laws to restrict fertility clinics and couples trying to have a family. I just don't think this is fair.
I got my twins from fertility treatments- not IVF. It was discussed with me about having too many follicles and not proceeding with IUIs to prevent a multiple pregnancy. Bobby and I talked about the "what ifs" of treatments, selective reduction and so forth. I don't agree with transferring a ton of eggs or becoming overstimulated and having higher multiples. But I don't agree with putting a restriction on how many eggs can be fertilized or frozen for future use. There is just too much at stake when couples are forking out a ton on money for treatments. http://www.latimes.com/news/local/politics/cal/la-na-octuplets-laws6-2009mar06,0,1714490.story
I loved the clinic I went to, and it is the best as far as I am concerned. I know they have set rules about how many eggs they will transfer as well as how far they will stimulate you before an IUI to prevent higher multiple pregnancies. As we all know that higher multiples cause a lot of stress on the mother's body as well as the babies and the chances for complications. I just don't get why anyone would demand to have 6 or more embryos transferred.
Anyway, I just hope that states and the federal government don't place restrictions on fertility treatments, for religious or another reason. It would make me happier to see them place restrictions on people having babies when they can't afford them, don't take care of them, or when they smoke crack. Just my opinion.
Monday, March 2, 2009
1. The summer off
2. Holidays off
3. All weekends off
4. Job security (the economy/budget cuts has me a little worried about next year)
5. Set hours
6. Changing the life of a youngster
7. SNOW days with my dog!
The list of cons:
1. Crappy pay
2. Kids treating you like crap/cussing you out
3. Parents treating you worse
4. Taking papers home to grade
5. Taking lessons home to plan
6. Hearing "you get the summer off"
7. Crappy pay
8. Not getting a raise next year and being told- "just be glad you have a job"
9. Getting cussed out
10. Crappy pay
Oh I mentioned crappy pay!
Really, being a teacher is great- most days. Especially today!! When I get to stay at home and play with the pup-ster out in the yard- he looked like a puppy again- no arthritis today!!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
I have a lot of things on my brain lately.
Before my next OB appt I have to decide if I want to do a blood panel of tests. I go back and forth on having these tests done. I have read there are a lot of false positives especially with the Downs test. And we agree that we won't terminate the pregnancy even if there is something genetically wrong. We talked about this when we went through the fertility testing, what if there were multiple multiples. We decided no selective reduction either- who am I to chose if a baby should live? So I still haven't fully decided on these tests as does it matter? No. But then should I know so we could be prepared? I don't know.
What about daycare? Should I stay home? Should I work part-time? What? I know this is only a decision we can make, but it plays on my mind daily. Will I be able to leave my babies to go back to work? I always have thought I am the type of woman that would work after motherhood, but will I be able to? When should I try to go back after the babies are born?
One of the biggest thoughts right now- is this weight gain. I know, I know, I am suppose to be gaining weight. But as a woman we are told, "Don't gain weight".... "Don't get fat." And right now the needle on the scale keeps going up and I am unable to control it and it does bother me cause I worked my ass off to lose weight and now here I am just gaining it back. I eat healthy and I am still exercising, but the needle keeps on sliding up.....
What kind of car seats should we get that we will get the most use out of? What about strollers that we can have for a few years? What about breastfeeding? What if I can't breastfeed? What kind of bottles should we get? How should we decorate the nursery (cause I found out the other night we have completely opposite ideas of what we should do)?
I can't even think of all the things now....
I am happy to be in the second trimester. The nausea has slowed some and I feel better. I look more like I have been eating donuts heavily instead of looking pregnant, however I do know that once I "look" pregnant, I will look pregnant for a long time!
If I could only relax my mind.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
I am still able to wear my dress pants (I moved back up in my closet of my "fat clothes" before South Beach entered my life, a big "What Not to Wear" No-No I know) However, my "fat girl" jeans are not comfortable so I am wearing maternity jeans.
My other milestone is that the nausea has subsided alot! My 24 hour a day symptom has diminished alot! I have to admit I am happy about that. Other things are kicking in- like acid reflux and my inability to eat tomatoes. I also borrowed a Doppler from a friend and I was able to hear the babies' heartbeats this morning! That was a wonderful sound! we have our gender u/s scheduled for March 10th! I hope they will cooperate!
Next milestone will be to feel these little babies move!! OMG that will be the most wonderful thing I will ever feel in my life! At least until I get to see them and hold them!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
We had another appointment today and got to see the twins. They really have grown and they were so cute in there.
Baby B (on the left) was moving and flipping around. Baby A (on the right obviously) was asleep at first until Baby B kept hitting the membrane and woke up Baby A. Then they were both flipping and moving. Baby B reached up and scratched his/her head! It was so cool that we could see their arms and legs and they were stretching. They wouldn't hold still so the pic isn't clear. I had asked the babies to be still and gave them a pep talk about saying "cheese" for the camera and being still, but they didn't listen. I hope that isn't what I have to look forward to for the next 18 years! Maybe it is cause they can't hear me yet. Hmmmm....
Some of the highlights going on right now, I am 12 wks 1d! Woo Hoo! I am almost done with the 1st trimester. Meaning that the nausea/ All day sickness is slowly diminishing, which is awesome! I am also slowly growing a belly. I am guessing this is probably the last week in my regular clothes, they are getting snug and I refuse to walk around uncomfortable. I am enjoying being pregnant and relishing every second.
Also, my husband is working hard on remodelling our main bathroom. I can't wait for it to be finished! Hopefully after the next 2 weekends it will be fully functional!!
I guess the biggest highlight of the day is that I graduated from the dildo cam to the belly u/s!! I wish they had told me before I sat there naked from the waist down with the paper blanket to cover myself for 45 minutes while we waited for the dr. At least he actually sits down and talks to us and we get a good 20 minutes with him.
So next u/s we should be able to see the sexes!! YAY! I am going to try to blog better as I have gotten some emails about what was going on, I am sorry but I wasn't blogging as I really didn't have anything too exciting going on cause I feel like I went to work, came home, slept to wake up and do it all over again. I figured no one wants to hear that... so I just didn't post. Sorry! Please forgive me!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Babies week 10!
And here I am 9 weeks and 4 days. Bobby had to remind me to smile as I felt like vomiting but he said "his children" might not appreciate the "I am about to vomit" face I was making at the time. (I'll remember they are 'his' once they are born and want to be fed and changed every 2 hours during the night- HIS children will want him!! )
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Baby A- which I have decided is a girl. Just cause I want her to be. Anyway- she was doing "crunches". My little girl worried about her figure already!! She doesn't realize that at 2.5 cm she has fab abs!
Baby B- which I think is a boy- same reasoning cause I want him to be. I think he is a boy for 2 reasons: 1. he was upside down- seems like a boy thing to do and 2. he was "flexing" his arms like he was in Mr Universe Body Building Competition! Watch out Arnold Schwarzenegger- MY boy is practicing now and he is only 9 weeks old gestational age!!