Tuesday, December 30, 2008
In the beginning (April 2007), I came off the pill thinking I would be pregnant in no time. It did take a few months but I did get pregnant. I even got to see my "blob" but no heart beat cause my dr said it "was possibly too early but I am concerned as the baby is a little small for where you should be". I should have known then but I continued on in my ignorant bliss buying gifts for my baby and maternity clothes. Happily gaining weight and rubbing my belly only to go in 4 weeks later to have no heartbeat, and Bobby and I got to "decide" how to end the pregnancy (D&C, do it at home with some med, or do it naturally). I did get pregnant again pretty quickly, only not have the beta number go up and I sat around for 2+ weeks waiting for my body to simultaneously miscarry. So I got to experience another D&C. I got to add some more scar tissue to my cervix and possibly making it "harder" for me to get pregnant, just what I needed. Plus, I got to grieve for 2 babies that I will never get to hold, kiss, see grow up, get married, etc. Through this my Ob thought that we had "bad luck" and sent me home with some progesterone suppositories cause "it couldn't hurt" since all my blood work came back normal. So when he saw the cysts and diagnosed me with PCOS he was probably more shocked than I was.
Anyway, I digressed. I am so excited to be pregnant after waiting and trying so hard. I was very aggressive with my treatments- ready to move on, if that's what it meant to get me to the means faster, even after only a few attempts with each different med or even having surgery. However, right now- I am also scared shitless that I could miscarry again. I have become the inspector of the toilet paper- constantly looking to make sure I am not bleeding. Every time I feel something I run to the bathroom to make sure it wasn't blood. Every cramp I feel, stops me in my tracks. I can't sleep at night from the anxiety (probably mixed with the hormones and having to pee). I am SO afraid that when we go in on January 9th for our u/s that Bobby and I will be faced yet again with a baby(ies) with no heartbeat. I don't want people to feel bad for me, just understand that until I am holding my baby in my arms- I will live with some type of fear of it being ripped away from me. Cause in my 20 months of TTC, I got to read all about m/cs and late m/cs and early labor and babies dying in utero. Then I have to worry about birth defects and chromosomal abnormalities. Thanks Google. I would rather just be ignorant and go through this like nothing could go wrong. Instead I get to analyze every twinge, cramp, CM, nausea episode or lack there of. I wanted to be pregnant and I am NOT taking this for granted as I know what a miracle it is to ever get to be pregnant. I have been a big cheerleader for so many that I know "in real life" and for those of you who are my on-line buds. And I will continue to do so until ALL the people I care about are holding their precious babies in their arms.
On that note- I wish everyone ALL the happiness that I can muster for a wonderful and "fruitful" 2009! Happy New Year!! 2009 is going to be awesome!
Monday, December 29, 2008
So after feeling a little sad- I decided to have my hubby take my first belly pics. Boy, am I sorry I had him do that. I even did it in the morning after getting up and before I put anything in there so I would be at maximum thinness. Then I looked at them- WTF? I thought I had lost 53 lbs! OMG- ughh! It's enough to make me want to go eat all the candy that was in my stocking. I don't know what I was thinking and it isn't like I can go on a diet. If you already feel like shit- why torture yourself some more? I am a glutton for punishment I guess or as my pic shows maybe just a glutton. So here it is- my first belly shot in all it's glory:
I hope I didn't make you throw up in your mouth! Sorry if I did. Happy New Year! 2009 is going to be a good year!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
I am pregnant! I can't believe it. Can you?
I had finally decided that we would do another round of the Follistim and then go back on bc pills for awhile and do IVF with ICSI this summer. I was a peace with that and was kinda going to go through the motions.
I also thought I was ABSOLUTELY not pregnant- no "signs" whatsoever really. So low and behold- It was "when I least expected it!!"
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Well..... need I say more.
SO... we took a break while Christmas shopping to touch these statues in the Ripley's Believe it or Not museum in the neighboring city. Yep, that is me touching the king's penis and Bobby grabbing the queen's boob (in the hopes to make me jealous that he grabbed some else's boobs)! If his grabbing some statue's boobs would get me pregnant than I am ALL for it! We then switched and I touched the queen and baby and he touched the king (but not on the penis). We then rubbed them both simultaneously and hopefully it helps us succeed in getting pregnant. We bought the pamphlet about the statues and read them at the restaurant with my mom and sister. I figured we could save that for our babies to see how much we really wanted them.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
"You have to talk to your pee pee. Pee pee I know you are in there and I want you to come out."
If you guess the movie you win- what I don't know but something- like maybe a certificate that says you watch a lot of movies or a ... I don't know I am out of ideas.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Bobby and I went to the Jones Institute yesterday for a Follie scan and blood work.
When we went on Weds there were 3 eggs. Yesterday, there were 2 good ones. WTF? What happened? Where did the other one go? Makes me a little nervous.... they had extended my Follistim on Wednesday when I called to get my dosage and changed my appointment time from Friday to Saturday. Then yesterday to have "lost" an egg... how does that happen? And they weren't much bigger. Each ovary has one follicle- which is different for me cause usually my left ovary doesn't do anything. But I have a 17mm on my right and 15 mm on my left.
I know it only takes one, but still. This cycle is making me nervous.
Trigger shot tonight... IUI on Tuesday. I need something cause I am not feeling very confident this month.
I have had some moments cause last Thanksgiving I got a BFP- this year STILL ttc a baby. UGHH! I got pregnant two times on my own and now since the miscarriages and starting fertility treatments- NOTHING! I don't get how this is so hard for some and really easy for others. Enough of my ranting....
I hope this cycle that seems to be falling apart will work.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Bobby and I went to the Jones Institute on Friday for CD 3 (even though it was CD 2) u/s and blood work. Round 2 of Follistim began last night- this cycle on the study I am strictly doing Follistim injections... no Ganirelix!
Bobby had a dentist appointment earlier that morning and had gotten some bad news from the dentist. He is slowly losing the bone mass in his jaw... so slowly but surely he will lose his molars. Nice. That's just great. He needs to go see a periodontist. So he was all gloom and doom.
So he thinks all doctors are full of bad news and if they aren't giving you bad news, they are pumping you full of hope and get you full of excitement and belief it can happen until you take a pregnancy test and it is a BFN. He even called this an "emotional roller coaster". Nice. Dear that is how I have felt for the last 19 months. Crazy. 19 months- WOW!
My visit with the u/s showed 6 follicles developing- crazy considering I wasn't taking any meds at that moment. They were all small- a 6mm follicle and the rest were 5. But there were 2 on my left ovary- which is odd as that ovary doesn't ever do shit. It just sits there- what it's exact function is I haven't found out yet. Cause neither ovary has made a viable egg yet that wanted to implant and make us become a family.
So yet again... maybe this month! Fingers crossed.. prayers going up.... shots going in...and I am going to "relax" cause now that I "least expect it"- I am thinking this could be it.
I do have to say I love my hubby! He sent my mom and me off to Blacksburg to watch my Hokies play football against Duke. It was cold- 29 degrees at kickoff. Woo Hoo! All I can say is Thank God they won! At least it made it worth sitting out there!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I don't really know what is next since I have never been on these meds before. I don't know if I have to take a break to rest the ole poly cystic ovaries or if we get to go ahead and inject myself with some more high powered hormones. I don't know- I guess I will call Nurse Beth tomorrow.
BTW- I didn't even shed a tear. Guess I am becoming immune!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I hopped on the scale this morning and that little device that has been my nemesis for years showed me one pound less making it a total of 50 lbs!! I have a friend that sent me an email with pics of ground beef when I lost 18 lbs and told me to think about my weight loss in terms of that. So then I thought of picking up 50lbs of ground beef at the store and wow- what a porker!! It would almost fill up your cart- I was carrying around enough extra weight to be equivalent to a kindergartner. Holy Shit what a porker!
Here's a pic of me at Thanksgiving with my niece/god daughter (Isn't she a cutey?) I on the other hand, look like a fat cow! When I saw this pic after Thanksgiving- I hardly recognized myself.
I am so excited I just had to share! So my body HAS to be ready for a baby or babies now! My doctor said Lose weight to increase your chances of getting pregnant- Done! I do feel a TON better and I think I am physically in the best shape of my adult life.
Monday, November 10, 2008
1. Where is your cell phone? purse
2. Where is your significant other? Work
3. Your hair color? highlighted
4. Your mother? talkative
5. Your father? deceased
6. Your favorite thing? Reese's
7. Your dream last night? forgotten
8. Your dream/goal? Family
9. The room you’re in? classroom
10. Your hobby? reading
11. Your fear? miscarriage
12. Where do you want to be in six years? mother
13. Where were you last night? home
14. What you’re not? Rich
15. One of your wish list items? mother
16. Where you grew up? Virginia
17. The last thing you did? talked
18. What are you wearing? clothes
19. Your T.V.? HD
20. Your pet? Reese
21. Your computer? laptop
22. Your mood? normal
23. Missing someone? always
24. Your car? Yukon
25. Something you’re not wearing? jacket
26. Favorite store? B.Moss
27. Your Summer? awesome
28. Love someone? whole-heartedly
29. Your favorite color? blue
30. When is the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? Wednesday
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
I have had numerous "How did it go?" and "what now?" comments on how the IUI went and the obvious- when can I test to see if I am pregnant. So here goes...
The IUI was pretty uneventful for me- took like maybe 20 seconds- the prep time is the longest part. Poor Bobby, he had the hardest part. But he managed to survive. Dr. Never Smiles did the procedure and that makes me happy as I don't think it is right to get pregnant without her. After all she is my dr and knows her shit. She asked me if I was prepared for the side effect- which is getting pregnant! Well I WANT that side effect!! She made me laugh!!
So now we wait... I was given the instructions to start my progesterone tonight and I can test on the 17th of November. Well, I will actually test on the 16th as that is a Sunday and I will need time to either be ecstatic or have my pity party. So that's it. The 2 week wait (2ww) begins. This is the most difficult part of the whole cycle... waiting. As you know I am not very patient... so this is the hardest part for me. Also the progesterone plays a game with me... gives me all kinds of pregnancy symptoms. I now know to ignore anything I "feel" during the 2ww.
I do appreciate all the prayers and support from everyone. I can use the support of my friends, especially when dealing with infertility and the crazy ups and downs that I have been going through for months. Thanks so much!
So now we wait.....
Friday, October 31, 2008
I went in Weds and had 3 eggs- 13,12, and 11. My friend nicknamed them Huey, Dewey, and Louie. And everything was going nicely then- nice uterine lining, etc.
Then, I went in this morning to visit with my long lost friend the u/s wand. Good news.... uterine lining looks good and is growing well. Huey is a whooping 19mm, Dewey and Louie are 17 each. WOW- they grew fast!! So one last dose of Follistim to mature those follies up and another dose of the Ganirelix. Which I do not like the Ganirelix- it burns and itches and makes my skin "bubble" at the injection site! OUCH!!
And last but not least they found that I have another follie:
Saturday, October 25, 2008
I am officially in the race... I mean study.
I went yesterday to have CD 3 blood work and an ultrasound (u/s) done. It took longer than expected, but I did get a gift bag full of meds that made all the waiting worth it. I should have said "trick or treat" cause it was a baggie full of some good stuff- a Follistim pen, needles, a 600 IU cartridge of Follistim, and 3 Ganirelix shots! I'll take that bag any day instead of having to call Success Meds with my credit card in hand- I'll be your guinea pig.
I am in group 2 of the study- which means I take the Follistim prescribed ( right now it is 75 units until I go back Wed morning for an u/s and more blood work) and when my follies get to 13mm I will take the Ganirelix until the follies reach 18-20 mm and then I do the HCG trigger to stimulate ovulation. Then IUI (inter uterine insemination) and some good ole fashion timed intercourse! Yeah! What man doesn't love to hear IUI?? Cause mine was like- what's wrong with us going home? Hmmm... cause that's the study's rules.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Friday was my post op appt with Dr Never Smiles. She said that during the laparascopy, they removed a fibroid on the outside of my uterus. They also removed 2 small spots of endometriosis- one of one my ovary and she didn't say where the other one was. She said they found a very small calcified endometriosis spot and they removed that and then called my uterus "beautiful" and said the hysteroscopy was "normal". About time something was! Also said that the tubes were open and my ovaries had some cysts but they were not severe (my question- why not go ahead and remove the cysts while they were already in there? I don't know I am not a medical doctor- just an idea) Anyway, so all is good and clear in there and although I have poly cystic ovaries- I do have a beautiful uterus! Ahhh.....
The best part of the whole appt was the offer of being in a study at Jones for women with PCOS and who ovulated on Clomid but did not get pregnant. Which that would be me! So in this study I will use Follistim and Ganirelix. I would be randomly put into a group within the study, so one month I do both drugs the next cycle just Follistim or vice versa. But it is all random and rotates with each cycle. I hope to only do one cycle but I am not getting my hopes up like I did when I started Clomid, now I am more realistic and cynical I guess. But that is neither here nor there. The best part of being in this study is that the pharmaceutical company pays for the drugs!! I can't believe it!! The only part we will have to pay for is IUI- if we choose that route- my thought is we might as well. So I am all excited- free meds!! It doesn't get any better than that!
So since I should have started a new cycle this weekend or Monday, Dr Never Smiles gave me 2 more days of bc pills so that I would start my new cycle on Weds so that Friday would be CD3 and just in time for me to get into the study and be all ready to go!! So here's to Friday! (insert the clinking of the wine glasses here)
I also had a great time with my in-laws and it was an awesome weekend as usual when I am with the family. I am just ready to rest since I ran all week! Whew!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
I must have done 20 loads of laundry- sheets, towels, and all the throw rugs in the house. Not to mention just the normal laundry. I feel like I worked in a hotel this weekend!! I did all this to turn around and do it again on Sunday after they leave since I can't go back to work with the house not straighten back up! I am a weirdo- maybe I need to see someone about this obsession to have everything be "fresh" before company arrives. 'Cause I do it no matter who is coming- even when it is my family!!
But the most exciting part is that this will be my family on Saturday at Busch Gardens!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Anyway- the surgery went well, well at least what I hear from Bobby and my mom. I wish they wouldn't talk to others and they would talk to you! Wait until I am awake and then tell ME!! Geez! It is my ho-ha you went in there and poked and prodded with metal objects! It is the least they could do! So from what Dr Never Smiles told Bobby and Mom, she found some really small fibroids (no big deal and removed them), she also found some Endometrosis (didn't think I had that- but I have had everything else so why not?), and she didn't find any blockages and my uterus wasn't as asymmetrical as the HSG showed. They also did an HSG again- Thank God for anesthesia!! It hurt the first time so I am glad I was asleep for the round 2!
So why are we not getting pregnant? 'Tis the million dollar question now. I think Bobby is FINALLY feeling some of my frustration, every time I turn around it is something else. He showed some true emotion today about this TTC journey. He was angry that they didn't find anything during the surgery to cause the miscarriages or why we aren't getting pregnant now. He wants his questions answered now. Hmmm.... I have been wondering this for 18 months, and NOW he finally wants some answers. Sucks to not get your way. He is also pissed that my post-op appt is next week. Why are they waiting so long to see us he wants to know! I thought next week was pretty good.
So now I will wait until next week to see the images from the Laparscopy and Hysteroscopy. In the mean time I ope my belly heals quickly as I do not like just laying around. I still have 4 more lbs to lose before I get pregnant!! So I need to get up and about soon!
Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes!! Now on to getting up and about so we can get pregnant already!! Sorry I am not more lively- I am just doped up and my belly hurts!
Friday, October 3, 2008
But to give you some info since I have been a slacker this week. I went for my preop appt with Dr Never Smiles on Weds. She went over what we were going to do and asked if I had any questions. I informed her that my only request was that under NO circumstances was she allowed to do a hysterectomy on me!! I also told Bobby that as well. Dr Never Smiles informed me that she wouldn't be performing that on me so to not worry! Since I will be asleep I just wanted my case known before hand- you know like being an organ donor or something! They also drew some blood and gave me some prescriptions. I don't have any infections and hemoglobin is "normal" so surgery is still on. So Tuesday it is!!
Last but not least! The most exciting part of the weekend for me is that my wonderful and awesome husband got us tickets for the Virginia Tech football game this weekend for my birthday!! Besides a baby- he gave me the best present!! I love watching my Hokies play football and it is even better when I get to watch it there!! In the full beauty of the stadium and the smells of the stadium food and hear the crowd and ... ahhh I am in love! It is simply the best gift he could have gotten me!! He does love me!! I know he doesn't quite enjoy it as much as I do- but he knows how much I love it!! I can't wait to go and be there!! It is also Homecoming to boot!! He is really the best husband ever!! GO HOKIES!!! Happy Birthday to me!!! Let's Go Hokies!!! Win big for me- it is my birthday after all!!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Yesterday, she called me and left a message on my cell phone and sounded annoyed that I didn't answer her call- hello I am a teacher can't answer my cell in the middle of the day! Duh. Anyway, she left me a message in a very annoyed tone that Dr Never Smiles told her to schedule my surgery for next week or the following week! Ha, I told you 2 months was too long to wait! So it is scheduled for Oct 7th at 6:30 am (they didn't ask me if that was a good time since they obviously don't know that I am NOT a morning person)! But I will be there with bells and whistles, well more like just showered and teeth brushed since it will be the butt crack of dawn! When I called her back she wasn't at here desk and instead of sounding annoyed, I left her the sweetest message ever about how I appreciated her hard work in getting me a date for surgery that was earlier, blah blah blah. When she called me back- her attitude had changed. You do get more with honey than vinegar!! I did learn something from my mom!
Surgery scheduled at 6:30 am Oct 7th!! Which is only a couple days after my dreaded bday! Oh well! Other than that- nothing new here except I am enjoying only taking a few pills this month- even if 1 is a bc pill!
Oh, I forgot to tell you- I made Dr Never Smiles laugh!! Yes laugh!! Her and her nurse laughed at my comments! Mission accomplished at Jones- well half way- they still need to get me pregnant!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
Full of twists and bumps and road kill! Some people get to exit off early, others have to keep driving- like on the road cross country or something! So I am on my cross country adventure to be with child or children- whichever!!
No use in sugar coating it any more for myself, I have accepted reality that it is only going to cost more and more for me to get pregnant and then we won't have any money to raise our wee ones. But they will be loved and wanted!! Who needs clothes when you have love? We have 8 tomato plants in the backyard- we'll live on tomatoes and love!!
I called the Jones Inst. yesterday and the nurse I love was out sick!! She sounded fine on Friday when I talked to her! Ha! The other nurse that called me back had no idea what was going on with me so I just made my appt to see Dr Never Smiles and I will go about my merry way! I do have to drive over to the other side of the water to see her, which takes about an hour, but it will be worth it!! I want her to tell me what we need to do!! She is MY dr however and I feel very comfortable with her!
So there you have it- a play by play! Next step u/s tomorrow afternoon! Hopefully, Clomid did not overstimulate me- like it has before! If I need to move on then I need to not be overstimulated!! No grapefruit sized ovaries here please!! Need nice, regular sized ones please!! I have been a good girl and done everything the drs have asked of me- so body give me a break please!! I just want a normal u/s and a go ahead to do something!! I want a baby belly already!! Sheesh!! What's a girl gotta do around here to get knocked up?
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
So I am not any closer to a baby than I was yesterday! Damn it!!
Good news- Hopefully this was all for nothing- I am testing in the morning 14 dpo (days past ovulation)- need lots and lots of prayers for a HEALTHY BFP this time!!! I want a HEALTHY baby in my arms!!! I hope all my planning is in vain! PLEASE!!!
Monday, September 15, 2008
Let's call this person "Susie"- Susie and I know each other, we are not exactly friends but we talk on occasion and she KNOWS we are going through fertility treatments and that I have been ttc for quite some time now.
So Susie casually tells me she is pregnant (Great for her I am truly happy for people when they tell me they are pregnant- it is a miracle) and then in the same breath says "And we are NONE too happy about it" Thankfully I used my acting skills and I didn't look as appalled as I obviously am as I stand there with an empty womb and I would just about do anything to have a child in my arms. I tried not to envision myself bitch slapping her - but I did. I try to teach the kids at school that violence is not the answer and they have told me that sometimes it is- I see their point now. Then proceeds to say how she was on bc ( birth control)! Holy shit, I haven't tried that but maybe I need some bc to get pregnant- I'll ask Dr. Never Smiles about that at my next RE (reproductive endocrinologist) appt. She might smile at me then!! ( J/K she does laugh/smile at me- who doesn't I ask?) Maybe she'll write me out a script for some good ole bc for me to get knocked up!! I mean shit we have tried alot of things so far- but bc wasn't one of them. And to top it off -then tells me that I will be able to help her get through this. With what my knowledge on how to get pregnant and your menstrual cycle? I don't know what happens when you are pregnant- never made it through the first trimester myself. But alas, I must be that person that looks like I give 2 shits.
My thought for this is- why the fuck would you tell someone that you know is going through fertility treatments that you are not too happy about being pregnant?? I would chop off my arm and give away my kidney to have a baby! I use to want a passel of kids- now I will be happy if I can just get one and bring it home from the hospital with all ten fingers and toes! I mean can people be any more inconsiderate? I actually already know the answer because I know that people have said worse. Like "just relax" or "I didn't do any of those ovulation thingies you are doing and I got pregnant, stop wasting your money on that stuff" " I just stopped thinking about it" "Are you propping up your feet on the headboard after sex?' "Maybe ya'll should go on vacation" (we went on a cruise to Alaska, any more relaxed and I would be dead- but still not pregnant)
The careless comments about maybe stopping the treatments is one I really enjoy too. Goes along with the whole "I didn't use all those pee sticks and I have 3 kids" well that's great cause Dr Never Smiles and Dr Austrian I am sure are wrong in treating me for infertility since I am apparently fertile if I would just relax and stop trying so hard.
So my thanks is to Cindy- she has helped me see the humor in ttc and that if we don't laugh we would all go insane! (I also borrowed this video clip- have to it fits)
I know I must be wasting my money at Jones Institute since I have had so any people tell me how to get pregnant "I should just relax". damn I should have thought about relaxing- I don't know 17 months ago.... but I think I will go relax now and see if that results in me being with child!!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
I also think that these drugs actually make the insanity plea plausible. Don't tell Bobby- but I think these hormones can make you say just about anything plus they make me a little more sensitive than usual. I am more likely than not to lose it while I do just about anything, driving is the big thing right now. I know that I have road range and I am flipping people off left and right here lately. My patience is null and void right now. Why you say? I don't really know but I think it is from the hormones induced by drugs, these drs are like pushers they have you hooked thinking that this concoction of drugs will help you succeed in getting pregnant. So any infertile knows- you will try almost anything to achieve that dream! I am fully admitting that I will try pretty much anything to get pregnant! I have heard some 'good' advice on how I can get pregnant- but I'll save that for another blog.
I guess besides being sweaty and hormonal, my next biggest complaint from these drugs that are suppose to help get me pregnant and maintain a pregnancy is that I am tired of being tired! Since I become an enraging inferno mostly at night, I throw off the covers and sit up and turn the fan up higher and I wonder what people did before a/c. And if I am lucky I will fall back asleep only to awaken shivering as I am freezing after all the sweat has dried and I have no covers on, BTW not complaining about being cold just that I am awaken AGAIN. So usually this happens several times through out the night. Which if you know me then you know that I love my sleep!! I can sleep on demand if need be, always have- right now not so much. I love sleeping in on the weekends and during the summer- one of those things I am trying to enjoy before I have kids and they get up early. But I hope they take more after me in that aspect and will enjoy sleeping in.
Ok enough of my grumbles about the side effects- but if I tend to be testy now you know why. It is all kind of bundled into one big cause- Hormonal Drugs!!
So I guess I need to warn some that may read here that there is no bars held here. Whenever and whatever I feel like saying I will and that includes the words that I have learned from the kids at school! So sorry in advance but I can be vulgar and graphic- can't help it- it's the hormones!!
Great day- Virginia Tech beat Georgia Tech!! YAY!! I love my college football! Go Hokies!!
Friday, September 12, 2008
I am very open and honest with pretty much anybody and everybody about the "Trial and Tribulations of my Hoo-Ha" especially now that I think everyone has seen it- well as long as they are wearing a white coat!
I am starting this blog in the hopes to relieve some of the tension off of myself and to give you some behind the scenes footage of infertility treatments. Hopefully, with some luck and good ole fashion sperm meeting up with the egg, I will achieve pregnancy and then I can rant about that for 9 months!!
The infertility issue we have is with my ovaries and me. I was diagnosed in February with PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) and some pretty wacky and weird stuff that was going on with my body. So PCOS means that I am anovulatory (not ovulating or not ovulating mature eggs). To help reduce some of the symptoms of PCOS, I began South Beach (which I LOVE) and I have lost over 43 lbs. Depends on what I ate the night before will depend on my weight loss. But that was the first line of defense for me- the dr said lose weight so I have- womb is still empty. WTH? But anyway- can't say I didn't try!
We are currently at the Jones Institute for Reproductive Medicine. I love my drs.- well some of them anyway. But they are super knowledgeable and have said their job is to get me pregnant- anyone who says that and can also accomplish it- gets a prize!! We have had other testing in the past few months- I had an HSG (which I don't know the whole name) which is where they shoot dye into the uterus and fallopian tubes to make sure everything is clear and there are no blockages- I got a perfect A+ (ALL CLEAR)! Bobby also had a sperm analysis which he did well too. He was "normal" and deserves an A as well. He has a good sperm count and morphology. Thank God- one less thing we didn't have to throw into the mix.
I are taking Clomid , Metformin (to help with the PCOS insulin resistance), baby aspirin, B12, Folic Acid, prenatals, Ovidrel (a trigger shot to make me ovulate), and Progestrone this cycle. We also did IUI (interuterine insemination) last Friday. Maybe we'll be like Jon and Kate plus 8?? She has PCOS and did IUI.... only time will tell
cause I am officially in part duex of my 2ww (2 week wait). Which means I have one more week until I can test to see if I am pregnant. So fingers crossed and lots of sprinkles of babydust or magic or whatever that will or can knock me up.
I promise to get some pretty stuff on here too pretty soon, just wanted to get this up and going. Oh I got my title from all the inconsiderate people that are fertile that have said to me "it'll happen when you least expect it" Well at this point every month I least expect it so will it happen NOW? How about now? Ahhh... the life of being infertile and the waiting that goes along with TTC.