"When I Least Expected It": Hormones make you crazy!

I now know that I officially have some crazy ass pregnant hormones going on. Not only could I not fathom the energy to get out of my pj's today (not that I am complaining as my 2 week vacation is ending) and I sat around and watched chick flicks all day. To top it off I have started crying when watching commercials.

Of all things a insurance commercial got me. It is of a couple in the hospital and they just had a baby and the dad picks the baby up out of the hospital bassinet thingy and is talking about how "when you get to that place where that little bundle of joy means its not just about me anymore- I am there"

Awwww... That's me. That's what I want. I want my hubby to pick our baby up and feel that kind of emotion. I want our baby to have a healthy heart beat on Friday. I just want a healthy baby in my arms. I want my baby to smile at me.

Damn...

They got me, stupid commercial making me all goofy and gooberfied.

TTC Journey

June 2006- Nah... let's wait one more year to try to have kids. Ahhh our ignorant bliss!!

April 2007- Came off bc pills- Holy crap, what are we thinking??

June 2007- Ok, school is out, now let's 'really' try

August 2007- I got a positive HPT (home pregnancy test) YAY!!

September 2007- 1st OB appt got a pic of my 'blob'

October 2007- 2nd OB appt- u/s no heartbeat- opt for a D&C (15th)

November 2007- Dr says ok to ttc again- Thanksgiving got BFP (big fat positive) on an hpt, you're going to m/c AGAIN call from the dr's office

December 2007- D&C for m/c #2 dr gives us the green light to ttc again, tells us we have "bad luck"

February 2008- dr does u/s, holy shit I have PCOS and a reason for the m/cs!! Start Metformin and dr says to lose weight on a low carb diet! South Beach started (2-24)!

March 2008- Clomid round 1 , also got the CBE fertiltiy monitor, got a "peak reading" BFN (big fat negative) lost 11 lbs first 2 weeks on South Beach

April 2008- Round 2 of Clomid- no peak reading, lost 26 lbs so far

May 2008- U/S shows BIG cyst from Clomid- no clomid for me and no AF either until it goes away- pissed and I hate my body, lost 35 lbs

June 2008- decided enough was enough- going to Jones Institute- they'll get me pregnant! no meds this cycle, just had fun and enjoyed being with my husband, started Acupuncture too, lost 38 lbs

July 2008- AF show in time for Jones consult and it was the perfect day to get bloodwork started and they said go ahead and take some more Clomid- if not pregnant it is time to do more tests on you and check Bobby, 6 follicles and 1st Ovideral shot

August 2008- BFN- HSG for me (all clear) and a SA on Bobby ("normal") more Clomid, lost 43 lbs total

September 2008- U/S revealed 3 eggs- ready for IUI- gave myself my first HCG trigger!! BFN!! 46 lbs lost total!!! HSG revealed asymmetrical uterus/fibroids, Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy schduled for Oct, back on bc pills

October 2008- Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy done- small fibroid/ 3 spots of Endometriosis removed- 10/24 Follistim/Ganirelix study started 75 units of Follistim, 48 lbs lost total!

November 2008- u/s 3 mature follies, BFN, 50 lbs total

December 2008- 2 mature follies, IUI #3 Dec 2, touched fertility statues, 53lbs lost, BFP 12-14, 1st Beta 285, 2nd Beta 498, 3rd Beta 7,655

January 2009- 1st U/S showed TWINS! Baby A 164 bpm, Baby B 158 bpm

TTC #3- Began SOuth Beach again. Lost the last remaining 37 lbs from the twins.

July '11- agree to no treatments and 3 O cycles to ttc #3. Oed on CD 13- BFN

Aug '11- never got a "peak" on the monitor, but a 26 day cycle

Sept '11- Oed CD 14- BFN

Oct '11- Oed CD 13- BFP 10-14-11, beta #1 188 @12 dpo, beta #2 808 @ 15dpo, u/s shows 1 gestational sac at 4wks. HB "normal" at 5wks 6 days 122.

"When I Least Expected It"

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Hormones make you crazy!

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